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Alcoholism, Brother, Creativity, Excuses, Mental Illness, Writing
I’ve had this theory that I’ve held onto strongly over the years that in order to tap into your true creative side, you have to be a little, if not a lot, “crazy”.* You know, like Vincent van Gogh, cut-off-your-ear crazy. I know I’m not the one who created this theory, I just really bought into it. And I think I’ve used it as an excuse to feel better about my lack of creative production. I’d tell myself:
“You’re just an average person, you don’t have a mental illness so of course you can’t tap into that creativity. It’s okay that you haven’t created anything very good.”
The Theory
There has been plenty of commentary, articles and even studies about the connection between creativity and mental illness. If you Google “artists and mental illness” you’ll come across plenty of lists and names you’ll recognize. I’m sure we can all come up with a few people off the top of our heads — Michael Jackson, Sylvia Plath, Kurt Cobain, Amy Winehouse, Virginia Woolf, and one of my favorites, Mariah Carey and so on.** So many of these artists have battled clinical depression, bipolar disorder, alcoholism. They are/were creatively brilliant partly because their mental illness drives them (or so I believed).
When I was in my first year of college, my brother (the artist) and his friend experimented with drugs — pot, hallucinogens and I don’t know what else. When I went back home for break a few months later my brother’s friend was transformed. He went from a Revenge of the Nerds***, Dungeons and Dragons playing*** regular kind of guy to an agitated, couldn’t-sit-still, tweaking druggie. And his artwork went from pretty good to awesome! Amazing! Fantastic! This was all seen through my 18 or 19-year-old eyes, but that’s how I remember it. That memory only helped to drive the theory into my subconscious where I totally accepted it.
What does Stephan King say?
I began reading Stephen King’s book On Writing (thanks for the recommendation JM McDowell). It was on my To Read list, but I moved it to the top after JM’s suggestion. About half way through, when he talks about sobering up he says he was willing to give up writing if he could keep his marriage and his kids. But he didn’t have to give up either one. He says,
The idea that creative endeavor and mind-altering substances are entwined is one of the great pop-intellectual myths of our time.
He attributes the perpetuation of this ‘myth’ to four writers:
Hemingway, Fitzgerald, Sherwood Anderson and Dylan Thomas. I know he’s talking about alcoholism, but some of these same names also appear on the ‘artist with mental illness’ list for clinical depression. It’s pretty common knowledge that many people with mental illness often struggle with alcoholism and/or drug addiction.
As I read King’s words I had an Aha! moment.
The Counter Argument
For the first time, I suddenly began to think of the counter argument to the theory. Even if studies have shown that as a group “artists” have mental illness at a higher rate when compared to the general population. So maybe there is a connection, but there are as many artists out there that are brilliant, creative, geniuses even, that do not have mental illness. They are somehow able to reach deep down, tap their creativity … even without the drink, the drugs, the hallucinations, the paranoia, the manic or the depression. They allow themselves to be vulnerable, they are brave enough to put their art out there, they are present with their muse and they create.
No more excuses!
So what does this mean for me now that I’ve busted this theory?
No more excuses! No more getting in my own way! No more not trying! In 5 or 10 years or (much later) when I’m old and grey I don’t want to look back and see all the excuses I’ve made that prevented me from writing because I was too afraid to try.
I want to look back, and whether I’ve failed or succeeded, I want to see that I tried … that I allowed myself to be as creative as I can be … and brave enough to put it out there.
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Side Notes:
* I debated about whether I should use the word ‘crazy’. I work with people with disabilities, including mental illness. In no way am I using the word flippantly or to offend. I’m using it to convey my thought process starting back when I was a teenager (when I didn’t know better) to now (when I do).
** I am not, in any way, comparing myself to this group of genius artists (okay maybe you wouldn’t use “genius artist” to describe Mariah, but hey, I’m biased, I’ve always liked her).
*** Not that there’s anything wrong with playing D&D or being a nerd … I like nerds!
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Related articles
- Link Between Creativity and Mental Illness Found in Large Study (sciencedaily.com)
- Writing Rejections and Going for that Overhead Smash (womensfictionwriters.wordpress.com)
jmmcdowell said:
Starting now gives you so much more time to perfect your craft—and more time to enjoy the writing process itself. I think looking back and saying “I wish I would have…” is one of the biggest regrets we can have in life. If you can avoid that road sooner rather than later, you’re well on your way to a full life.
I’m glad King’s book holds some helpful information for you!
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Arlene said:
Thanks JM, the book has been great. And thanks for the support. “Sooner rather than later” is relative … I can look back already and see how many times I said I would start “now” then didn’t. But this time, having others know and share in my goals, plus all the support and encouragement seems to be making a difference! 🙂
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Denise Hisey said:
Stephen King’s book is on my ‘to-read’ list, too! You’ve encouraged me to nudge it a bit closer to the top 😉
I have plenty of people who tell me I’m crazy (or weird). Sometimes I just say “Thank you!” when they say so! That catches ’em off guard! LOL
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Arlene said:
Denise, move it to the top. It’s an easy read, not at all like some of the “text book” type of writing books I’ve picked up (and quickly put back down) 🙂 Thanks for stopping by again! 🙂
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Carrie Rubin said:
Great post, and you raise some interesting points. I don’t think one has to have a mental illness or a mood-altering vice to be creative. In fact, I think either one of those is a sure means of tampering success. We’ve all heard of brilliant musicians who’ve never gone on to produce more great work because they’re so stuck in their illnesses. They start out strong, but trying to sustain success under those conditions can be very difficult.
I loved Stephen King’s book “On writing.” Is one of my faves. And thanks for listing my blog post as one of the posts you like in your side widget! I appreciate that. 🙂
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Arlene said:
Excellent point Carrie. Thanks for commenting and you’re welcome (about having your post in my side widget). You write such excellent posts, I’m happy to share. Hope you get a few extra click-throughs. 🙂
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Katie said:
Hmmmm, I’m not crazy, I don’t think, so it’s nice to know there is still hope for me 🙂
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Arlene said:
There is always hope 🙂 Thanks for stopping by – it gave me a chance to visit your blog and oh I LOVE the kitty pictures. They are too adorable and the names are too!!
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Andrew Toynbee said:
Arlene – I’ve always known that I see the world very differently to most other people I’ve met. It’s a rare day when I can comfortably hold a conversation along the lines of ‘odd’ without having to mentally edit my words as I go. Crazy is in the mind of the observer, I guess, but I’ve no doubt that we’re all wired up differently.
I, too have always wondered about the connection between genius and art. With any part of the art (painting, music, prose, films) industry, the unfortunate ones get the most publicity. But rather than focus on those who produced great works and then died, we ought to count the ones who continue to produce with no apparent ill effects. The demographics for artists is probably no different to the main body of the population.
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Arlene said:
Andrew, you make some great points! We are all wired differently and I think some have that wire that directly taps into their creativity more than others. The question is, do they use it? If so, it is often evident. If that direct connection isn’t there, I think it is still possible to tap into our creativity, though it may take more effort.
I am fascinated when I interact with people whose minds work differently than mine and its evident, especially the artists!
Thanks so much for stopping by and sharing your thoughts 🙂
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